Every person has two faces of consciousness, one with his ideal, one with himself, the reality. When the two faces merges, he transcends to the other self, and above all contradictory he might encounter.
In the theater, as she watched those bewildered scene, she did not close her eyes, or tried to escape the moment of intrusion or instant humiliation, but instead, she stared at the screen feeling indifferent.
Ghost flying in from the window, group sexual interbreed, physical bodies with amputated legs, raping acts with distorted and bloody faces....
She sat motionlessly there, not frightened, but sensing a mile of detachment from the world, a span of chill crawling from her feet to her heart, not from fear but from her own coldness.
When she was a child, even a year ago, she could not watch any horrid movies, could not bear any thing emotionally astounding, for she could not walk in the dark alleys, sleeping without lights on, for these monsters would chase after her in her nightmares...
How did this apathetic feeling has become of her ? When did these protecting deities encompass her ? Should she feel pleased of such "improvement" ? Or she must have suffered from a life and death trauma. Is this good or bad? These thoughts awoke her while in conscious, she was determined having experienced a revelation that never occurred in the past 20 years.
She did not tell anyone that from this point on, she felt 3000 years old, like an vampire living forever in the universe, watching human being developed into such a lovely and ugly species that she was not proud to admit to be one. Yet, she tells stories. (1-2, Mindancer)
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