金色筆記：人生如夢

Photo by X. H. 

有人說，你今生會遇上的人，
在前世就已經約定了。
也許在夢裡，
像網路似在空氣裡迷漫。
你的眼充滿了迷惘，在雨中。
你入俗的說你見過我~
但是我知道你並沒有說謊。
我也見過你....

人生如夢...

這擦肩的火花
隨著香檳的氣泡擴散，
是否，這是你刻意的安排？
我是多麼刻意的想要逃脫

逃避一切的浪漫陷阱。

為什麼要我
再次走進有男有女的霧中？
滿林鳥飛，毫無盡頭？
最愛的是你，卻是如夢似幻。

What is happiness?

“The amount of happiness that you have
depends on the amount of freedom you have in your heart.”
- Thich Nhat Hanh

Milky Way at Bir, India

金色筆記：at 3：00 am in the morning

‎3:00 am. 半夜裡，手腳都塗上最愛的亮麗桃紅色指甲油。身上擦着甜甜的CoCo~~
只因在半山上，秋月惆悵的令人打寒顫，細雨把心窩錐得疼。
看著庭院裡的楓樹，慢慢的凋零，溫柔的凝視，火紅金黃的透露出原本的脆弱，淒美的嬌縱!
— at 陽明山夜景.

And still, I have this impeccable sadness suffocates me, deeper and deeper.
There seems no point of escaping as there is also no point of reference down to the path in samsara. I am entering a black hole where no one can hear my voice, where I could not utter a word from my mouth.
I think only mantra accompanies this sadness will safe me from explosion.....But still, I shed tears, like sparkling pearls, one by one.

Self Reflection ~

"Share your great moments with all sentient beings.
Let them have the great moment too;
 it is beautiful.
That is the dedication .
Share your beauty with everyone, then let it go…" --- Kalu Rinpoche

"May you see your beauty and glory in all beings as you continue to shine from within ! " ---- Prayer from F. Jen

沙漠上的羚羊：天葬2

她喜歡沙漠的一望無際，更愛那孤獨的，神情渴望的羚羊。像他一樣。
這是一場沙漠的浪漫之旅。他說他在沙漠中，眼裡看的是美麗的日出，
心裡卻都是她的倩影....

他們半躺在沙發上，溫柔欣賞著一張張的幻燈片。
他們說這是一生中最難忘的野外的熱情纏綿了.....
距離西藏的天葬，已有七年半之久...

Photo by W.S.

Dubai, United Arab Emirates.

Photo by W. S.

空中的禿鷹： 天葬1

她的第一直覺是對的。
看到那些干辛萬苦拍回來的照片，還有那篇文字，總覺得好熟悉的地方，好熟悉的情感； 不禁就這樣呆坐在 Notebook 前感動涰泣了起來。不知道是什麼力量讓她一張張點閱著風馬旗，空中盤旋的禿鷹，卻身體顫抖著流淚。 一個半小時之久，哭泣的回溯這一個前世似曾牽掛的情緣。
她內心絞痛著。她深層記憶裡知道，不要去踫它，不要去挑戰一個前世困難的卻未了的心願，她想逃避。 卻無法按奈寫上幾句感言的衝動。那就隱姓埋名吧，她想。郤不小心的無意識的填上了她的email, 將是她人生一大轉折。 她當時天真的未意識到，一個小螺絲的鬆動，將大大影響了一艘遊艇的安穩航行。
她的第一直覺是對的，但是她違抗了直覺。
她讀着來信，他句句真誠的想認識她。一個來自遠方另個世界的他。 另一個世界。一個真實的另一個世界。 她拒絕了用MSN, 後又無法抗拒的妥協；她多次拒絕了通話，後又軟弱的被說服了。 第一次他與她暢談了七小時的國際長途。。。 是她的疏於照顧自己的心。 一顆容易被鼓動的心，容易受傷害的心。 一顆逐漸打開心房卻更容易破碎的心。她沒有好好的呵護她自己的心。
9/18/2011

他，像空中的禿鷹似的，擁有超人的敏銳度，與掠奪性！


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=94xj6Im44Ew&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Lady in Red ~~

at Murray Perahia's Concert

About Love! 世界上有 " 真愛 " 嗎?

在戀愛當中的測不準定律，激發了倆人相互能量的波動。有的人把顯影當作挑戰，有的人當作終結，有的人當作奬賞，生活的興奮劑。不過無論戀愛是在無限悸動中擴張，或在一次大地震中潰散，總是一個令人害怕的慾想及期待。
當兩條平行線在十一度空間裡相互影響，像戀人，像兩個世界的人在相互猜疑嫉妒背叛崇拜模仿羨慕ˉ...，很近很近的幻覺，郤是很遠很遠相互干擾的牽連。

這就叫作戀愛。

痛過的人才知真心的可貴，更不願全心付出，連續失敗的愛情會誏人越來越無情。所以訓練人堅強最好的藥方是，多多戀愛失敗幾次，就會明白，愛情不過是催眠自己，催眠對方的遊戲。在當下掏心的同時，必須信任，此人可能隨時背叛你，而你自己也一樣。凡人的戀愛，只有心動怨恨激情仰慕鄙棄，整天衡量比較競爭....輪輪迴迴，輾輾轉轉的在痛苦及快樂中輪迴!!
「真愛」只有在宗教的祟高下才存在！！

"真愛" 只在一個狀態下存在: 那就是，當你發現了自己原本的真心，當你的本覺心性與對方的本覺心性交融，同時存在於一個純然光明，無染無垢，無惡無善，更沒有開始結束的安住時，真愛才會存在!

"博士熱愛的算式": 軟弱的我們必須狠狠的在寒冷人生裡愛與忘卻!

在前天的讀書會裡看了一部很棒的日本電影：“博士熱愛的算式”，導讀人藍祖蔚老師說，如果你今年只看一部電影的話，那就選這部吧，因為這是部 “真善美” 的好片。


確實是很棒的電影，一個因車禍腦部受創，造成記憶只能維持 80 分鐘的數學博士，每天見到來服務的管家都像是初次見面，卻和管家、管家的小孩發展出像家人一樣相互照應的溫馨小品電影，由導演小泉堯史改編小川洋子原著小說拍成。看完後對藍老師用的 ”靜好“ 這個詞彙，深有同感，希望這兩天有辦法把更多心得整理成網誌跟朋友分享，也推薦大家有機會的話，去找 DVD 來看看。不過不要期待什麼“高潮迭起”的劇情，安靜的去享受每個鏡頭就好，然後思考一下，什麼是 “記憶”，什麼是 “遺忘”，什麼是 “質數”，什麼是 “友愛”，很有意思，聽說這是難得連原著小說作者都覺得改編的更好的一部電影唷。

藍老師在片後的演說中有提到黃友棣作的一首藝術歌曲：“遺忘”，還說 “高喊遺忘就是因為不能遺忘，真的忘了的人就不必再說要遺忘了“ By Pearl ~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9ySf69nBHQSee
周华健-忘忧草!
Blessing Angel :
 我看完覺得"真善美"，也許只在沒有持續記憶的當下之中，在電影小說情節裡! 真實生活，想要達到這樣的境界，必須把每一個人當作質數，把世界當做完全數，然後，全然存在於費式公式裡! e ^^ + 1 = 0 。 空，無， 的境界!
軟弱的我們必須狠狠的在寒冷人生裡愛與忘卻!

Love the Mosaic ~~~

This place has the most delicious all day Brunch now ~~~

Healthy Recipes: for the Halloween

Roasted Pumpkin-Apple Soup  From EatingWell.com

Apples add just a hint of sweetness to this velvety pumpkin soup. Try it as a delightful first course for a special meal or for dinner with grilled sharp Cheddar sandwiches.

Calories 180 per serving
Yields: 12 servings, about 1 cup each
Total Time: 1 hr 10 min

4 pound(s) pie pumpkin or butternut squash, peeled, seeded, and cut into 2-inch chunks (see Tips & Techniques)
4 large sweet-tart apples, such as Empire, Cameo, or Braeburn, unpeeled, cored, and cut into eighths
1/4 cup(s) extra-virgin olive oil
1 1/4 teaspoon(s) salt, divided
1/4 teaspoon(s) freshly ground pepper
1 tablespoon(s) chopped fresh sage
6 cup(s) reduced-sodium chicken broth or vegetable broth
1/3 cup(s) chopped hazelnuts, toasted (see Tips & Techniques)
2 tablespoon(s) hazelnut oil
Directions
1.Preheat oven to 450°F.
2.Toss pumpkin (or squash), apples, olive oil, 1 teaspoon salt, and pepper in a large bowl. Spread evenly on a large rimmed baking sheet. Roast, stirring once, for 30 minutes. Stir in sage and continue roasting until very tender and starting to brown, 15 to 20 minutes more.
3.Transfer about one-third of the pumpkin (or squash) and apples to a blender along with 2 cups broth. Puree until smooth. Transfer to a Dutch oven and repeat for two more batches. Season with the remaining 1/4 teaspoon salt and heat through over medium-low heat, stirring constantly to prevent splattering, for about 6 minutes. Serve each portion topped with hazelnuts and a drizzle of hazelnut oil.

At National Concert Hall in Taipei

The concert in Taipei on 10/9 was exciting, for the big number of performers and an ardent conductor. However, in my opinion, the chorus was not professional enough, where combined 2/3 of non professional choruses members, sounding unfocoused. And the balance amid orchestra , chorus and vocalists could be much better....

Mahler Symphony #8 ( Symphony of A Thousand ) Finale with Rattle

In honoring the 100 birthday of the Republic of China, and the 100 anniversary of the death of Gustavo Mahler, NSO gave a grand performance of the Symphony #8 in Taipei on 10/9/2011.

The work was composed in a single inspired burst, at Maiernigg in southern Austria in the summer of 1906. The last of Mahler's works that was premiered in his lifetime, the symphony was a critical and popular success when he conducted its first performance in Munich on 12 September 1910.

The structure of the work is unconventional; instead of the normal framework of several movements, the piece is in two parts. Part I is based on the Latin text of a 9th-century Christian hymn for Pentecost, Veni creator spiritus  ("Come, Creator Spirit"), and Part II is a setting of the words from the closing scene of Goethe's Faust.The two parts are unified by a common idea, that of redemption through the power of love, a unity conveyed through shared musical themes.

Mahler had been convinced from the start of the work's significance; in renouncing the pessimism that had marked much of his music, he offered the Eighth as an expression of confidence in the eternal human spirit.
From Wiki~~

Follow your heart by Steve Jobs

One of Job's most brilliant speeches:


“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
"Stay hungry, stay foolish!"
- Steve Jobs

1. Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become.
擁有追隨自己內心與直覺的勇氣，你的內心與直覺多少已經知道你真正想要成為什麼樣的人。

2. Stay hungry. Stay foolish.
求知若飢，虛心若愚。

3. Much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on.
追隨我的好奇與直覺，大部分我所投入過的事務，後來看來都成了無比珍貴的經歷。

4. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did.
我確信我愛我所做的事情，這就是這些年來支持我繼續走下去的唯一理由。

5. If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right.
把每一天都當成生命中的最後一天，你就會輕鬆自在。

6. Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important.
提醒自己快死了，是我在人生中面臨重大決定時，所用過最重要的方法。因為幾乎每件事－所有外界期望、所有的名聲、所有對困窘或失敗的恐懼－在面對死亡時，都消失了，只有最真實重要的東西才會留下.

7. No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there.
沒有人想死。即使那些想上天堂的人，也想活著上天堂。

8. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.
你們的時間有限，所以不要浪費時間活在別人的生活裡。

9. Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent.
死亡很可能就是生命中最偉大的發明，是生命交替的媒介。

10. The only problem with Microsoft is they just have no taste. They have absolutely no taste. And I don't mean that in a small way, I mean that in a big way, in the sense that they don't think of original ideas, and they don't bring much culture into their products.
微軟唯一的問題是完全沒有品味。我不是指在小節上，而是大節上。即是他們沒有自己的創新意念，也沒有把他們自身的文化貫注入自己的產品中.

Let us pray for Steve Jobs: May he purify all his defilements, and attain enlightenment. And so does every one.

Rubinstein Collection #66 ~ Piano Quintet

Rubinstein Recording 66

Dvorak:  Piano Quintet,  No.2 Op.87 in  E flat Major
Schumann: Piano Qintet , Op. 44 in E flat Major



I could not find Rubinstein's Recording on Youtube!
Our beloved Argerich is always spectacular !

Wine and Cheese in Bella Vita

I was at a "wine and cheese" class in Bella Vita Cooking Studio today, and discovered a delicious favor :"French Creme Calvados". It tastes so special to spread this apple wine Creme cheese on a piece of French bread or any pastry. :)

今日於Bella Vita 新發現： ＂蘋果酒乳酪＂。好特別的好吃！塗在法國麵包或任何麵包點心上都很棒!!

Other Cheeese:
1. Bel Paese: Meaning Beautiful Country 。Soft White Cheese.
2. Parmigiano : Hard Cheese. King of Cheese. Manufacture only in Mid Italy, Lombardi and Emiia Romagan.
3. St Agur: Blue Cheese. Manufactured in Mid France.

White Wine from Italy: Cortese: in Piedmont
Red Wine from Italy: Barbera : in Piedmont. Alba, Asti, Mnferrato.

King of red in Italy: Barbaresco.
Queen of red in Italy: Gaya

From www. Envitaly.picket.net/blog

Catching the last flame of Summer ~~

＂轉山轉水轉佛塔，只為了，在途中與你相見！＂

“蕭瑟秋風今又是,換了人間” ~~~
洪波湧起驚夢中，大江東去。
月滿倚欄將進酒，豈在人樓~~

Fly~~

If I can fly,
I would discover my own sky,
I would find my roses and Proses,
I would struggle through all the barriers,
I would fly as low as the surface of the sea,
As high as the cloud.

Not in the cage like this.
A small playground with old tricks,
With same nutrient to feed ...
With non loving caretaker,
With no identity at all!

Although cage is the secure certainty,
Pretending to be my heaven...
Only if I do not have the ability to recognize the sky....
However, .....

From Parokee dairy

A night with Hagen String Qurtett on Moon Festival

String Quartet no.16 in F major op. 135 by Beethoven
Some notes on the composition :

1st movement: Lots of Repetition with tension. Tension.
2nd movement: Solomn without much hope in the beginning, but follows with several 7th chords with surprises, ends with tranquility.
3rd movement: Contrasting 3 chords repetition for introduction. Counter point continues, Fugue. Sounding characteristics with 2 bars of repeated notes on the accompaniment playing with the melody line.
4th movement: Ending with some recapitulations of the 1 st movement's motif, With Tension released. Personally I feel it is a weak ending....

Performance by Hagen Quartett.

In comparison with the String Quartet in D minor, " Death and the Maiden", D 810 in the same CD, musicians seem to love this piece much more, performed with extreme moving and Dramatic passion.
I love the dotted main motif in 1 st movement, chromatic ascending makes it very Grand...
2nd movement: Sorrow in the beginning, theme and variation form , change to pure romantic...playful..Majestic ...peace.
3rd movement, ABA . Scherzo
4th movement, introduces with unison theme brings out the inviting leadership atmosphere.
Again, dotted theme with 16th notes accompaniments which imitates the horse running
Lots of unison makes a strong ending.

He wrote his piece when he realized that his health is in danger. As he wrote to his friend : "Think of a man whose health can never be restored, and who from sheer despair makes matters worse instead of better. Think, I say, of a man whose brightest hopes have come to nothing, to whom love and friendship are but torture, and whose enthusiasm for the beautiful is fast vanishing; and ask yourself if such a man is not truly unhappy."

"One Day" : Conversation on the film

If we can live and cherish for the moment, we will not have regrets ! ~~ The film "One Day" touched my heart, although I did not have tears in my eyes, ... almost.

Director: Lone Scherfig. 2011
Writers: David Nicholls
Stars:Anne Hathaway, Jim Sturgess and Patricia Clarkson

Pearl:  So, you did see the movie. I don't really think there is much regret in terms of "love" in this movie. After all, they did have each other after a long exploration. But, who cares? The long exploration is also THE process to enjoy while fairy tale "love-at-the-first-sight" normally won't last.

However, the regret is more about the eternal departure that came so suddenly though inevitable. If only people would realize change could come any moment, they will cherish any moment like never before. And, the scene where father and son sat together talking about the 9pm TV movie did make me cry. Rationally, I know losing someone you love and love you is better than never loved or being loved, I can't help feeling sad for the loss.

Blessing Angel:  When she was unanticipated struck off by the truck, I, at the very moment, felt the impertinence trumpeted in the air penetrating my senses; when he was severely wounded laying on the stairway, I, in the bottom of my heart, felt his hopeless fear and sorrow. As I recall, those are the moments I almost shedding my tear, with empathy. Yes, I agree with you in terms of no regrets on this love story. Since they were together after all and he had made her happy during the time. However, he became so emotionally dependent on her, which crippled his ability to grow and to live his life with hope. I think the foremost touching elements are one's realization of impertinance and their confrontation of the dificulties in life itselfe.
 
Pearl, I like the results of the story, because in the end, he became a real man who can take responsibilitise and appreciate his love, his mother, his father, and his daughter, those who had been disappointed in him before.

C'est la Vie : Lady Singing her Lullaby...

Listen To The Winds Soft Cry
Of A Lady Singing Her Lullaby
Whispers Of The Night So Long
Wishing For That Famous Love Song

You Are My Light
When Darkness Falls
You Are My Sight
In My Darkened Halls

Hear The Joy Of An Angel's Glee
When The People Around Her Now See
With Eyes So Clear And Pure
All Now Really Can Be Sure
Whispers Of the Night...

Villa 32 ~~

Picasso Exhibition 1： Transformation

Blessing Angel:
＂它是一種處理形式的藝術，它把真實加以移位，轉化。真實不再存於物體中，而在繪畫裡。＂---畢卡索，談立體主義。
下午於歷史博物館參觀，如夢似幻，時空如物換星移般，融入他畫中的情慾與天真的交錯。一位兒時作畫栩栩如真，到成熟後，在乎內心的意象，感官，投射，把他所看到的感受到的一切，在畫布及雕塑上呈現。

Mau： 從追求栩栩如真到意象投射，是畫家的心靈革命。畢卡索的畫我也是好多年之後才「漸漸接受」。
Pearl: 所以蔣勳老師說他是拒絕原地踏步的人，真是很棒!
Mau: 有一陣子我很喜歡「讀畫」，其實到現在也還是喜歡，只是沒那麼頻繁。去揣摩畫面上的一筆一畫是如何畫上去的，還有構圖，以及畫家的心境。常常會有一些體悟。
不過我都是看水墨畫就是了。

Angel: Pearl, 蔣勳老師說的極貼切。原地踏步的精神藝術生活，有如未曾來過世間一般！：）
Angel: 一個除了乍看下震憾,心動外，令人一再細細品味的作品，更有其深度及寓意。我們看到的是畫家心中眼中的意象，如同Picasso 筆下的女人，都在不同的狀態下展現，也許是迷惘，嘶吼，澎湃，深情，羞澀，...但不再只是美美的一尊雕像。她活生生的正在與畫家對話 。「讀畫」也許須要進入畫家的世界，水墨，學長你懂得多，那禪意更深。在畫鯉魚時，那就不是畫家與魚對畫，而是畫家透過魚兒的和諧衝突的結構，來表現他的意指。

What do you think an artist is? ...he is a political being, constantly aware of the heart breaking, passionate, or delightful things that happen in the world, shaping himself completely in their image. Painting is not done to decorate apartments. It is an instrument of war."
— Pablo Picasso

I Ching introduction: 澤山咸

咸：表感動也。主吉象。感，有如青春男女，清純無暇的感情，心心相印有感而發的情感，得此卦，與感情有非常大的關係。也可引伸為對一種理念的認同和欣賞。咸，並無利慾的情色糾葛，是屬於比較「感性的」一種感覺。對男女之間的感情，是最大的吉象。
特性：羅曼蒂克型，異性緣佳，感情豐富，六親緣濃，口才佳，貴人多助。
解釋：合和。
運勢：吉祥如意。但勿為不正當的感情而意亂迷惑，或過於衝動。然得此卦時，會有男貪女愛之箏，非名正者必遭損，宜慎之。
愛情：互敬互愛，清清白白者定成眷偶。


咸：亨，利貞，取女吉。

彖曰：咸，感也。柔上而剛下，二氣感應以相與，止而說，男下女，是以
      亨利貞，取女吉也。天地感而萬物化生，聖人感人心而天下和平﹔
      觀其所感，而天地萬物之情可見矣！

象曰：山上有澤，咸﹔君子以虛受人。
     
　　初六：咸其拇。
　　象曰：咸其拇，志在外也。

　　六二：咸其腓，凶，居吉。
　　象曰：雖凶，居吉，順不害也。

　　九三：咸其股，執其隨，往吝。
　　象曰：咸其股，亦不處也。 志在隨人，所執下也。

　　九四：貞吉悔亡，憧憧往來，朋從爾思。
　　象曰：貞吉悔亡，未感害也。 憧憧往來，未光大也。

　　九五：咸其脢，無悔。
　　象曰：咸其脢，志末也。

　　上六：咸其輔，頰，舌。
　　象曰：咸其輔，頰，舌，滕脢說也。



   
　

I Ching Introduction : 巽掛

巽掛57th :風為巽
巽：小亨，利攸往，利見大人。

彖曰：重巽以申命，剛巽乎中正而志行。柔皆順乎剛，是以小亨，利有攸
      往，利見大人。

象曰：隨風，巽﹔君子以申命行事。
　　初六：進退，利武人之貞。
　　象曰：進退，志疑也。 利武人之貞，志治也。
　九二：巽在床下，用史巫紛若，吉無咎。
　　象曰：紛若之吉，得中也。
　　九三：頻巽，吝。
　　象曰：頻巽之吝，志窮也。
　　六四：悔亡，田獲三品。
　　象曰：田獲三品，有功也。

　　九五：貞吉悔亡，無不利。 無初有終，先庚三日，后庚三日，吉。
　　象曰：九五之吉，位正中也。

　　上九：巽在床下，喪其資斧，貞凶。
　　象曰：巽在床下，上窮也。 喪其資斧，正乎凶也。

謙虛以對，必有小亨通。但也不要猶豫不絕，優柔寡斷。

運勢：此卦象徵多波折，游離不定之運也。此時要處理不驚，堅定意志，物事果斷而隨機應變，不必一味跟從順行。待人接物宜心平氣和，則可得意外之收穫。切記狂風之下必有所損。
愛情：要冷靜。風若和，日必麗。風若凝聚，可知暴風雨將至，大事不可不慎時好時壞，把戲真不少，均輕飄不實也。